| Just thinking |
[Aug. 16th, 2008|05:06 am] |
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So another late night random exchange of thought. Friendship probably the biggest word i've ever said next to the pursuit of love and music. But this hands down has been the worst year of my life astronomically speaking this is reportedly to be the year of my life where i learn my (the most) life lessons. The year that defines character, person life, who you actually are, who wants to take a walk out side. But when does life become too old, when does life become something too small for you to conquer? I know life continues but when does it stop with the end of knowing!?! With so many fish in the sea how do you know it's true? random. yes i know. But honestly when does it click??? When does the puzzle COME TOGETHER! Know one knows! yeah i spelled it right! Anyways I met like a dozen people tonight I..... jammed, drank, conversed, and inspired! a lot to think about when your the big two zero! Is the world big enough? Is it ready? I want to change how you think. I want to change how you view everything! One step at a time! L.L.! Haha Your talking too much! But i guess i need a little time:( but i guess you never need anybody! |
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| Sick sad little world |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|12:36 am] |
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I fed up with having to deal with others problems. I'm always there for the people that know this, but seriously how much I wish I was god I'm only but his perfect creation... I'm trying to make life worth livin! so the one quote that has helped me through all my troubles......Everything is ok in the end, if it isn't ok then it isn't the end..... Let it be. |
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| Take a break and smoke a j |
[Oct. 16th, 2007|11:05 am] |
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Yeah so this weekend was fairly interesting, the ackwardness of thursday nights always seems to be fun to everyone. But not so much for me anymore...Friday night broke the hq record for most number of people to throw up in one over night drunk. Saturday I think I had a sexual revelation or an epiphany if you will, I realized something I knew but never that level of understanding. So at that point in time Goose and I had to go smoke a j. Sunday also was quite interesting i don't know if its the secrets or the kid on the floor squeling like a wounded animal. My birthday is coming soon along with my mother and roommate homer, so LGAFUnFAKoB. p.s. school going well but its getting rough keeping up, school, work, family, fun, golfing, skating, and fuck man just L-I-V-I-N. Peace royal- |
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| GRRRRRRRRRRRRR |
[Aug. 18th, 2007|07:53 pm] |
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Fucked up and sitting not knowing what your missing, if you were a little close girl we'd be kissing and getting in something interesting. But that's life your thoughts are consumed by the night thinking about what i've done right to be holding you tight. Just one more time enhale the sound of your voice rapped around me like it was once already mine, but oh know the days begun the atmosphere is gone and left the room. all that's left is to sweep up this mess with a broom. Well i've said my shit and out with it, now go along and step aside there's new horizons coming astride. I'm Fucking Tim Fey Bitch! |
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| Fuck everything |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|02:35 pm] |
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Life is the biggest fucking piece of shit,it never gives you a break. You know how people say it's better to have loved and lost than better to not loved at all? That's fucking bullshit the pain, the regret, the damage done can never be healed back to what is was. One of my best friends is hospitalized from brain cancer, wondering wether or not he's going to make it. I lost people I cared about more than anything I had known because I was afraid. My grandma isn't shaping up too much either. I hate this feeling of being completely lost... Life just fucks you over and over. CHuck once wrote our lives is our great depression, makes alot of sense froma certain point of view. I once was going to get lovelife tattooed on my wrist, should have listen to alex. Fuck this shit!!! This entry proabably doesn't sound like my usual self, so imsorry for those who care. |
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| Circles |
[Jul. 28th, 2007|12:42 pm] |
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I don't know its from the abuse or the love or the work but everything seems to be going every fucking opposite direction. Been dazed and confused for so long its just not true anymore, the other day I went and attempted sober sleep for the first time since I can remember... I thought and wondered about love so much that it doesn't mean anything to me anymore, its too much physical and mental bullshit. or is it just what you need. Work just is too good to be true but that's what bugs me, one thing i have learned is that nothing good last. So with everything spinning around my head at once i couldn't help but notice the colors are getting brighter, the world seems like its about to unveil itself before me. Elevate the game go hard for yourself! That's been stuck in my head for a couple days now the ma-to is what i have been trying to do with my life for about a year now but i'm now where where i want to be. Something need to change but no clue as to what to change maybe i need to move away or maybe i need to eat meat again or find a new job or fix a lost friendship or start another one. But i'm going to to keep walking on this path until i'm sorry for what i've done. I am sorry for what i've done to you's and your's just hope you understand. peace. |
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| On and on and on and on |
[Jul. 15th, 2007|01:07 pm] |
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So royal life's been a trip lately. I moved out on my own, no support from parents. I feel like I have matured already but i'm always down for new experiences. Some shit isn't right though. I feel like the warmth has let me go. I don't know im probably just getting depressed from all the bullshit lately. but i don't know. but yeah time togo work is calling:( |
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| You can hear can hear a piano fall you can hear me coming down the hall! |
[Jun. 22nd, 2007|12:30 pm] |
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Well in about 9 days i'm moving out of the nest and starting my life the way i see fit. I'm going to school full time, Hotel restuartant major and i'm minoring in guitar. Work is work but still has it's moments that make it worth those shitty days. I have recently gotten a promotion thats two inless than 8 months. I'm in the best shape of my life i would put a picture of my sexy body on this royal but yeah life is starting to make sense of what it used to be but there's still something... but its gone with wind but yeah just checking in royal and peace. |
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| I'm talking in my top ten man i put that on the hood |
[May. 31st, 2007|01:23 pm] |
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Dear Royal, yesterday was one of the best days of my entire life. It started off the best kinda way morning glory is all I need to say, There's nothing like a beautiful brown eyed lady:) Then banana's decides to make bloody shirley's and go swimming then I go to work and take some golden tickets and have the most amazing day at work I have ever had!!!I love my job! Then after work tired and all Bananas comes through and we have a classic. Then my sugar and I go to far hills and watch the city. It was just a shot of life all day and it went down so smooth. I learned alot about myself yesterday, It was much needed because my mind was starting to loose me. But yeah thanks for listening royal! peace! |
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[May. 23rd, 2007|11:23 am] |
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Going a thousand miles down the way, but this is my life everyday. It hits soo hard but leaves just the same, so how do I know whether or not to discard or tame. Too drunk to love and too high to fuck but hey guess that's just my luck. With every touch and every glance girl your making me want to stand up and dance. Even though it would look foolish to make this choice i'm still standing here listening to your voice, To take the leap to make the move, girl you wont regret riding my groove. So let take you mind to somewhere sublime and your body to somewhere close in time. But maybe i'm over thinking got it too planned out whats with me and all this mother fucking doubt. I done the man is released, step two is next hopefully I can find my... PEACE |
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| I don't know anymore |
[May. 17th, 2007|11:23 am] |
It seemed like everything has been so clear work, school, friends, life, love but now all of a sudden the feeling of clarity is fading away. A certain trend I have noticed in my life is that everything listed before is going great, amazing life couldn't be better. Then out of now where it all goes to shit. It kicks my depression back into gear and the feeling of being lost doesn't help. I need change. I think I need something more than the same soup today i'm tired of just reheating it.
bye royal |
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| This is bullshiiiiiiiiiiit |
[May. 1st, 2007|09:11 am] |
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SO what's with everyone doing fucked up ass shit to each other. I'm running out of people that are genuine and actually care. So for those who have done some bullshit atleast try and make it better, or just give it up! peace |
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| Release of the Trojan |
[Apr. 21st, 2007|12:42 pm] |
You don't know me but you'd like to
Why'd you think I stood beside you?
Not concerned with how this might fall
Nature become prowl at nightfall
When the sun begins to dim
And eventually the day dies
And the mood prepares to sway
That's where another way lies
Glow of the liquor store lights
Set the scene for no rights
Let's convene, discuss the scheme
And hope it flows how we dream
Tonight can make or break you if you let it
Someone set it out for you to let it out
Now don't regret it
Get embedded to the back drop
Positioned there with your cash crop
Envision night as the last stop
Don't miss the train
It's time to gain, strain, aim, fire
Blame, reign, fuck and then retire
I'm liar past eleven, after one I'm on the run
Till the sun comes up tomorrow
I'm working, you're having fun
Not too devious, but that's me
Spontaneous if you ask me
But then again, I'm blending in.
Step to the beat, walk to the beat
Talk to the beat, live to the beat
Rock to the beat, fuck to the beat
Dance to the beat, pay to the beat
Fight to the beat, you get l-l-lost to the beat
Police walk the beat, kill to the beat
Steel to the heat, terrorize kill no retreat
Prowl to the beat, how did a V-O weak scandal oh spray vandal
Walk the streets I hear footsteps on the streets
Someone's following me on the streets
Like racism on the streets
Can't even have a new car on the streets
Police prowl on the streets
They got you sittin' on the streets
Runnin' ya L's, what in the hell?
Runnin' on tell, they see a black man they get scared as hell
Like did somebody escape from jail
You feel em' prowlin' when you walkin'
Some rooms when you walk in like boom
I wanna just break shit, I wanna re-create shit
I wanna take shit you say and use it against you
Act a damn fool like crackheads do
Like your mama do
You don't know me but you'd like to
Why'd you think I stood beside you?
Not concerned with how this might fall
Nature become prowl at nightfall
Dusk, thus the beginning is on until dawn
Trust regardless of the daily
Really nothings wrong
I'm still breathin' and here's another evening
From the fortress
I leave for my course of tonight's achievements
There's no grievance in my pocket
Just a couple of dollars, a pen and hopefully my wallet
Because my man over here has got the hook up at the front door
Long as my ID's right what more could they want for?
Yeah we in there
Like fluoride, off the wall on the left side
A room full of pride, I'm consumed by the tune applied
This fuckin' DJ is tight man
I can already feel the minutes being added to my life span
MC Lyte paper thin drink tickets from the staff
Now it's time to make a friend and see if I can make her laugh
Hey princess, I got a lot of dialog
So I'm gonna line it up for you to get high and try to follow
Light up another false sense of security
Play a game of twenty questions
You can test my purity
And as the world comes down on me
And as I go down on her… night prowler
I'm out when the freaks come out
Way after dusk
After the time when the opening acts get they time to bust
The nightshift I prowl and observe like the owl
Surroundings minus the scowl
Wise and well endowed
In the mental! Well renowned
Ghetto pass every town
PSC! Nice 2 meet you, oh you know about this wow!
Your ex-boyfriend showed you all about this how?
Can I thank him for training such a beauty
It fits my style
Compliments exchanged
Plus 5 dollars change
Signed my name on the poster
And I kept it in the holster like I'm supposed ta
Now, what would you do in the clutch
If you get a pussy hug after dusk?
You don't know me but you'd like to
Why'd you think I stood beside you?
Not concerned with how this might fall
Nature become prowl at nightfall |
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| I'll make it rain |
[Mar. 5th, 2007|02:55 pm] |
Dear Royal
This weekend was a blast, barely got any sleep but had an amazing time, it sucks meeting someone and connecting on a higher level and them leaving before anything more beautiful could happen. But thats life. One day i'll go to europe. Pretty crazy party this weekend thanks to creepy! On another note im glad I got my wingman back, School is going well, its starting to slip though but I noticed and now fixing it. Work is the shit love my job! Paid dues is coming probably going to be an amazing experience! First trip with all of us together. Life is great as of now but yeah just dropping bye royal so yeah... Peace! |
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| bhwiqobfyucfocv |
[Feb. 28th, 2007|12:21 pm] |
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So i once again have gotten in a car accident because of stupidity, some one please hit me! |
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| Sums |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|03:02 pm] |
I have always lived violently, drunk hugely, eaten too much or not at all, slept around the clock or missed two nights of sleeping, worked too hard and too long in glory, or slobbed for a time in utter laziness. I've lifted, pulled, chopped, climbed, made love with joy and taken my hangovers as a consequence, not as a punishment."
-John Steinbeck
“Not necessarily stoned..but beautiful”- Jimi Hendrix
“Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence” - Aristotle
“There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.”- Johnny Depp
“We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another.”- Johnathan Swift
We must become the change we want to see.”- Mahatma Ghandi
“You can chain me, you can torture me, you can even destroy this body, but you will never imprison my mind.”- Mahatma Ghandi
“Men often become what they believe themselves to be. If I believe I cannot do something, it makes me incapable of doing it. But when I believe I can, then I acquire the ability to do it even if I didn't have it in the beginning.” - Mahatma Ghandi
The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated- Mahatma Ghandi
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”- Jack Kerouac
“You're only as young as the last time you changed your mind.”-Timothy Leary
“Genius is the ability to put into effect what is on your mind.” F. Scott Fitzgerald
For those who read this is a sums of qoutes of my life (some what) but yeah enjoy and thanks melissa! |
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| what the fuuuuuuuck |
[Jan. 28th, 2007|10:28 am] |
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Dear Royal, so TROUBLE IS THE WORD OF MOUTH which really fucking sucks because its the last thing that i want, even after you... try try try. haven't written in here for a while so for anyone that reads this(which is probably no one) but yeah i am outbacks employee of the month, school is going well haven't missed one class and it's been two weeks:) and yeah last night just sent some shit up in the air so i'll let you know how it goes, and i'm about to do some x today at one o' clock so im out for now. peace royal. picture me rollin! |
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| Hey you!?!?! freedom isn't free! |
[Nov. 30th, 2006|10:02 am] |
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Only colby, jill and I would almost get into a fight with some soldiers that just got back from iraq. So Fook america because thats how it all started but we try and speak peace and knowledge and of course this redneck just wanted to fight over nothing. hmmm Redneck fighting over nothing?!?! (bush).They also pulled out the freedom isn't free bit, haha. They even asked us if we "killed 6 people for our nations name". wow. peace on earth. |
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| sdbuigovbhw |
[Nov. 27th, 2006|12:26 pm] |
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So a little too much wierd shit is happenening nowindays kinda want it all to chill out on me for a little, and please all psychos stay away! If you can hear a piano fall you can hear me coming down the hall. My before you come up with some crazy ass out there theory run it by me please. I wish my age wasn't an object with it, we could have some fun and even better times, you know this is true don't lie I see it in your eyes. soon. hopefully. haha your never going to read this. where is my mind? |
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[Nov. 14th, 2006|09:41 am] |
Dear Royal,
Once again I have see death, looked like a light pole and a round about. but you know what I have had that mentality live as you die today for a while now and this has been some of the best times of my life. Yes a lesson was learned we all have limits and yes we need to see them. School is going good but not really I had to drop some classes because of failure but I learned a lot from the classes itself. I can pick up any rock and tell you what its composition is and texture and what other minerals are in it. I can tell you how to manage your money and how to run a business (i think). I just really suck at taking test. But next semester I know I need to study more. I love my job so much fun. Well anyways I've grown up a lot and realized a lot of shit isn't worth it at the end of the day and a flower is worth it just because you tamed it.(melissa haha). See you later royal. We die today so live it up guys. |
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